Stuck?!

you fantasize on different lives, you fantasize on possibilities, you said it once "even love is an excuse", that makes sense now, you fear of being stuck, you see relationships as being stuck, you have in your mind example of unhappy stuck housewives, you are bitter about relationship, i understand now, but you put yourself the barriers, these housewives put their own barriers, you are just stuck in yourself, because you don't say what you want when you want it, and now you preject yourself in others to feel their emotions, and it works, i guess you feel intensely that way, you try to experience to be everybody,(and that's why i feel betrayed, because i say i'm all for you but you want to experience others lives), i think i understand now all your behaviors, why you seem you can't settle in your choices and you always are letting yourself a way to escape as a devious thought because you had always been free, just decide what you want to do right now and act on it, effectively how can you start a normal relationship if you associate it with being stuck, which is one of your biggest fear, i understand now why i thought you wanted everyone and everything, you don't want to shut down the possibilites, and finally you never choose, (like the kid in that movie), if you don't settle what you want i will never be happy with yourself, because if you want to go, have the impression something's happening you'll have to make choices, which means discarding a tons of different possibilities. where should i put myself in all this, am i just an excuse, i think if i feel for you i should come and ask you, help you make choices, prove you i'm not fake, or i should forget about that dream of being with you, because i don't want you to feel stuck, unhappy, and if you are with me notice that you are wishing for all the other possibilities, everything's clearer now, oh yeah it is, but i don't know what to do... i can hope that if i'm with you, i'll hold on your mind and love will be real enough to keep both of us stimulated, and that you don't feel stuck and just good in yourself, with me. how to know. does that mean you would wish to cheat on every boyfriend you could have? everything makes sense now, even your taste for friendship and intimate movies and books, you live experiences through the characters; will you be eternally unsatisfied, if you don't make up your mind and build certainties on what you want, you'll always be scattered, unfaithful, and maybe i could never trust you. when you share that with me it's like saying that you can't be faithful because you have sensual fantasies through others.i understand it's your way to have your affection because you have no friends while i can call someone or go see someone to talk and spend time if i want, but with friends it's not sensual or sexual, like it seems to be in your fantasies.
finally what do you want with me?