to be fine

Providence entangled our routes
sharing and feeling strong to mend our wounds
i'm scared
does that mean i won't ever be with you
we get to go astray to come up sure of ourselves
walk or scramble along all those paths
taste the dust, the filth, the shame, the humiliation...
a grinding of joy, or complete bliss too
and gather at last proud and certain
that we belong together
or something different...
i'm scared
and i shake
in that lancinating lack
the perpetual
this one possibility
that finally
i will vanish
or slowly fade
out of this life

my satisfaction, my life plan
is nothing
without you.

what is set,
it is to heal us
and abandon could be
to save us both.

my satisfaction, my life
what will you do to me
please providence
let her stay close

to skin
to flesh
to heart