Development on the search for absolute self

I think ultimately one can really be himself only when one is alone, isolated, out of sight from other human beings, the quest for oneself can only be done through solitude and immediately if we find ourself amongst our fellows, if we notice them, then our behaviors, our thoughts are influenced, and we can't be ourselves; we can't be entirely self-centered to deny the existence of others around us, it's impossible, and we naturally need others that's why they forcibly have an impact on us, even the slightest, it can't be otherwise ; we should be blind, we should lose all our senses, because a simple glance crossed and noticed in the street changes our behaviors and automatically instils thoughts in our brain; we have a natural need of others to define us, to reassure us, because the emotions that we can feel are a pleasure and we are subjugate to it, I think the best we can do is to find people who will influence our behaviors and our thoughts so that we feel good emotions, that way even if we are not really ourselves in its pure form, at least we feel pleasure to live and keep close to the world. It's an alchemy.

(to go farther, the simple fact to think about someone changes our behaviors and our thoughts evidently)