(It's good to write, because it's all i can do sometimes, and keeping in what exerts and longs to be told only brings tension inside, it feels good to express to people, to this page, to you, and you, and us, to say what i want, what i feel, and to stimulate my mind, when no one and no thing is reachable there, at once, by any means, any moves, any actions, but only personal and very intimate words.)