something like that

Here's something that happens to me sometimes, it was longer and scarier last time.
I lie down on my bed with some music on, i let it carry me into a little nap, focusing only on the notes and the images it produces in my mind, slowly i sink to unconscioussness, it's peaceful, even pleasant, but many times to get out of that state something is wrong, it's like my brain awakes faster than my body, still a little mixed with imagination, delusions, i sense it's time to get up, but i notice i can't move, i think of my limbs, to my eyelids, i command them one by one to move, but i'm stuck, like if i was immured alive, i hear the music and flashes occur as my eyelids try to open, i guess that's what can feel a guy stricken with tetraplegia, so i start to panic, i scream against my body, "move please move!", transforming into a wimpy pleading, and i imagine my mouth slightly opening, my dry throat, but no sound coming out of it, i'm paralysed but in a semi conscioussness, it's a very disturbing feeling, i sense a huge quantity of waves crashing inside my chest, the life force searching for a rhythm, but it's a storm of irregularity and chaos inside, that time despair began to rise in my thoughts, it lasted so long, i put all my energy to drag me out, to make me at least fall off the matress, i wanted someone to hear me and come into the room, but it was impossible, nothing was reactive, after a while i felt resigned and powerless, it's never so long usually i had the time to experience complete hopelessness, or it's a bit like a taste of death.
Finally i emerged, relieved, pounded, and bewildered.

(at one point in that confused situation i've even beholded a mouse, running along the ridge, then climbing on my leg and jumping toward my face, i was fresh meat, clearly doomed, a sign of the end)