I can't be a good writer anymore, because i know too much about my truth, and my hard core values push me not to be a faker.
Writers are Fakers, i say that like a creed and hereby i throw myself off the cliff, i slip off the stool and savor the slow narrowing of that rope around my neck.
I'm talking about Story writers, not philosophy writers.
Those last ones are simply enlightened Fools!
Life is made for living.
I think there exists writing that is between fiction and truth. I, for example, like to imagine scenes but those written descriptions and feelings derive from my real experiences. It's part of dreaming, living through imagination what you cannot or do not want to live for real, I suppose you could say that's not reality because it means the writer makes assumptions and works with stereotypes.
RépondreSupprimerI think there are fiction writers who are truth seekers, in my perception they are not all liars.
And I'm thinking also, that's why writers are encouraged to go to therapy or read self help books and challenge themselves by thinking of their past hurts. They need to channel those hurts in the present in order to write dramas, because if you write about an event that happened not too long ago it is difficult to remain distant. I think fiction writers are fascinating, and I don't mean the mainstream ones who write according to a formula. But to me, there's something extraordinary to read well written stories about internal lives of fictitious characters and know that the author distanced him/herself to write that. Because it's not about the author you are reading, it's about an imagined life the author created in a dream like state.
Finally, fiction writers get to be whoever they want to be in their writings. I can be a woman, a man, fat, thin, work as a mailman or the president's secretary!
RépondreSupprimerI'm excited, I have lots of things to say on this subject.
Writers of stories are just like writers of philosophy. In fact, they are even more so writers of philosophy than so-called writers of philosophy themselves. Anyone who writes a story, has taken their observations of the world, and put them in to tangible form. Their writing IS their philosophy, their beliefs, their judgments of the world, their views of it, etc, all put into a fictional character's perspective. A writer of fiction is a Creator. The only fakers are the ones who pretend themselves to be critics.
RépondreSupprimerI still have my dark and caustic spirit.
RépondreSupprimerWhat i meant was if you know the theory, how you must act and think to reach your personal happiness, writing becomes useless, any writings, fiction, philosophy or life events, because to live happy you don't need to flee in the mind, in past or future, in thoughts you'll arrange nicely or viciously to put on paper, to me this is avoiding life and so not the way to happiness, which everyone wants, and if you feel happy through writing can it means that you deny life?!, if i think about it that's it, and i can extrapolate to movies, video games, those sort of things where you're not alive in this world for a moment, you become unconscious of what's around, isn't it not living in the present?!, i understand both of you're comments and actually i totally agree with you, i think i'm overthinking this, but what can i do my mind is there, trying to go beyond, to jump off walls, and i may be losing my common sense because i do like writing and books and movies and games, i have pleasure through all that.
But probably sometimes it's ok to disconnect from this reality, and yeah in fact it's very stimulating, that shows the limit between imaginative people and action people.
I should think about what i want in my writing, and i guess i'm searching for a motivation to write, sometimes i don't see the point, i'll just like to live my dreams, act and move to where i want to be, i feel i could write anything, i could fake anything, any life, any character, i've read enough to be an impostor and write correctly but with no passion comming from me at all, which will be up to my principles : a worthless writing, sometimes i feel like i can't see the little things that would make a good and deep story, grasp it off my daily life and put it in a fictitious setting from my mind, so what's there to write for me, what's left when the common coating of a tedious life falls onto you, at least i'm thinking now, working my brain out, i can bloom so many images in one letter, a personal sending, to someone i turn my entire being to, for that moment, and that end up in a fancy writing, that i like for sure, but it's always a palliative to real life.
I stop here i'm feeling i could go on and on, and digress and make a fool out of me, there i'm stimulated to write, eh, thanks both of you for your intelligent comments.
But if what we write is not read is it valuable?....zzzzzzzz
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Every good writer put his heart and mind in his writing, so reading him is like entering his being, i always think beyond when i read a story, i always try to perceive the writer behind the words, guess his philosophy, his mindset, his life, that's how i can feel close and i like it, i create to myself a relation with the real person behind the story.
RépondreSupprimerI can analyze the characters in a story for what they are and what they do alone, but i always end up searching for the reality of the author, to dissect what he is or was, searching for his biography or profiles, every hints i can find, i guess i'm an intimate person like that, that's how i feel close to what i read and the author, that's what i like.
Now you are warned if ever i read you.
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I often feel the need to write, it's like an itching on my hands and I feel I could alleviate myself if I hold a pen and sometimes I get dreamy when I feel the tension of the keys on the computer or a broken typewriter. But my problem is, I feel what I would write is too close to me... my private life, and I don't feel comfortable sharing that with people I don't know. So I don't really write, I don't show my stories or poems online, I was always awkward with sharing writings in workshops at school (although those were rewarding experiences, it feels good to have a literary spotlight in a group of people who too like analyzing and enjoying the imaginative).
RépondreSupprimerI miss the way I used to write when I was a child. I used to write everyday, describing in details all the mundane events. I agree with you, yes I see exactly that this kind of writing is a palliative! I know I wrote in journals, obsessively, ritually, because I was lacking friendships so I used writing to express myself. Ultimately to express myself to myself! It was written for no one but myself. And I believe to this day I still feel this need in me, but as I've matured as a person the things I started to write become more philosophical and records of the important events of my personal private life.
I think only the private writings of mine are valuable. They are valuable to me. I can't imagine sharing that with people I don't know. I can see myself reading excerpts to one person, to share myself this way, but that's all.
I've had this idea, this vision ever since I was an adolescent glued to pens and papers. I hope someday, long after I'm dead, someone will see value in my writings and publish them for all to see. That would be my legacy, so to say, my words would keep me alive and touch anyone who feels they can relate, connect, and grow from reading it.
I want to add another thought I had: I prefer writing to a photograph. If I see something pretty, something that evokes emotion for me, I had an urge to write about it. To write is to convey feeling, specific to each writer, because we all perceive things differently.
RépondreSupprimerSo maybe writers are people who want to freeze emotions, the way people take photographs to store in memory albums.
We can gather together a group of people, facing the ocean, and each one can take a photograph. But ask them to write what they see, that would be more interesting and unique to each individual!
RépondreSupprimerWriting takes more talent than photography i guess, all that you said is acceptable but why not try to publish your writing now?!, while you're alive and can see the impact on people!
RépondreSupprimerYou'll tell me, and we already talked about that : "It's too much personal and intimate to me", but i don't think it's a valid answer, you're writing style is good, you have intelligent observations on the world, people and yourself, so why not accepting it, if you hide it, it means you're not in harmony with yourself, that you think some pieces of you are shameful, so i'll say there's cleansing to do and slight changes in your personal philosophy, yeah this is only for your own well-being, how can you be recognized as a good writer if you don't disclose your inner being, your thoughts, your reasonnings, your observations, and so agree with yourself that this is you, and you are coherent in your mind, if you feel you are coherent there's nothing to hide and be shameful of, if something's bothering you that means you lack a piece of your own philosophy, and you have to work on that, well here i go beyond the simple fact of writing, but again as i said, to me a good writing must be sincere and so a good writer must know philosophy and psychology, and use it with faith and smartness; in my posts i revealed ugly things but i'm simply ok with my thinking (i want to write an atrocious dream i had last night), i don't care to be blamed because it makes sense to me, i can explain it with my own perception, and that's ok if people don't understand or have a different opinion on it; well i can't think in professional terms, i hate roles, i hate playing, writing for money, writing for fame is playing, but i agree that feelings must be conveyed, but with intelligence, and that people can relate or brought to think about it is a very interesting outcome for me, we feel because we are touched and because we can touch others too, that's a sharing process which can be so powerful and gratifying for many when made with a purpose, let's say preferably a positive purpose. Spreading the analysis of our emotions, each one for everyone, enriches humanity.