The early begining of losing oneself

People are all so pretty, inventive and talented,
so what can i do
not to feel compared
and compare myself
not to suffer

let myself drift on an
..ugly
.....lazy
........lonely
...........lame
...............slope

There i'm untouchable

The king of nothingness, the prince of contradiction!

It was the start to preserve my unicity until i reach a higher self consciousness.

(Some others will choose to lie, cheat and steal, as it's required to survive in this current humanity.
Those too weak or too righteous will find a way to shatter ostensibly, to be acknowledged.)

But in the end, it's the same, no one is honest to self.

How do you do? (How did you do?)
Which crack you chose to fall in.
Depression, anorexia, drugs, promiscuity, (self-)victimization, money, children, god, and so on, any kind of dependency.

To get out?!

When you start to see that nothing is serious, no thing is sacred, "nothing is true / real / forbidden, everything is permitted", it's in fact your own choice, to choose what's important or valuable for yourself (not dictated by others or doctrines), then you start to let yourself be, just be, faithful to your inner being, and realize that it's the new meaning of life.

(This is for you to realize where you are on your own path!)