How do people do?

That's twice that year, i have a girl in front of me, the moment is intimate, a night sky, an isolated place, maybe the sound of a stream of water flowing nearby, calmly, we talked for hours before that moment, easily, emphatically, we had some few drinks too, a connivance is here, getting stronger and more intense after each revelations and stories we shared, we smile at each other, for real, i feel their warm bodies getting closer to mine, searching contact, with fleeting hands, lingering on my back, on my thigh, gliding langorously, the bright eyes are calling me, and the message is clear, no mistaking, i just have to bend over and pick them, hold them like a delicate flower, and i know for sure that's what they expect, an everlasting desire, beyond a replaceable body, we shared mind intimacy, what's labelled "personal secrets", in complete trust, and that's already a zone where even some married persons never went, in few meetings i went with those girls where many people can't go in twenty years of living together, i can feel they are mine, they are surrendering, they are dying for that moment where i'll grab their waist and kiss them tenderly, everything swirling in the heat of passion,... so... with my sensitivity, my shrewdness, i noticed the signs, i read their mind, but that's too obvious, and when i try to feel, when i start to imagine the movement, and them melting in my arms, i feel nothing, i don't feel to act, me i don't have that desire, i don't give in to their appeal, that cry for love, while i know it's genuinely me and not anybody else they want, in that bursting moment, i feel no desire, twice that year without searching it, only being me in front of someone i met, am i broken, not in phase with my animal part despite having no taboo about intimacy, am i too selective, too much aware, or am i wanting, waiting unconsciously for "the One", how do people do?, making it out so superficially, sometimes even with persons they aren't even attracted to.

How
do
people
do?