old song

Here i am again exciting my curiosity with a million subjects, people and ideas to check, i'm all over the place and my mind copes very well, it galvanizes me, it's my food on which i thrive, i have plans and when they answer me back i'm overwhelmed with electricity.
When i'm passionate i can't be betrayed by myself because i go toward the good willingly and knowingly.

I will learn to control those phases to be a happy and confident person.

There are so many norms i don't understand, so many things i don't want, so many opinions and behaviors i can't stand, that i have the impression i'm bound to live in a box, or worst to live only in my imagination, for now it's like this reality doesn't suit me, i can't feel good in the world i know around me because so many things are not up to my standards, so much is vile, stupid and cheap (here my distorted perception makes me think "begining by my body", though i'm aware it's only a conditioned thinking), because of that i can't have it as easy as others, i have to strive, scramble and fight heartily, earnestly to reach what i need.
There's one thing i can do to be fine, Living up to my own rules!, finding out the burrows where the smart people are hiding, as few as they can be, i must keep that hope and that i'll find my place aside some of them, in simple acceptance, in love, in trust, in communication, in sharing.
I'll hold on to my needs, what i want close to me, what i want to be part of the world i crave around me, what i believe, what i know that's good up to me, because i know, i know i have to trust myself to be able to trust what is good for me, to build up with others that world i will feel joy to live in!

Ideal is availlable for everyone, this knowledge must be shared, i'm not a dreamer, i'm a humanist, i want it for me first, because that's all i can control and act for, my own life, my own needs, then share it with others fitting my real self.

And all along, with you.