The Communication and me

I can't lead a conversation, I only know how to reply with all my sincerity, because I don't want to impose anything to the Other, and simply starting to develop a subject without knowing if the person in front could have any ideas of what I say is, to me, imposing oneself; So if no one does the first step towards me then I would stay away in my solitude as an observer; Another problem arises : I feel no interest in talking about trivial things, the things we discuss when we try a conversation with someone unfamiliar (which is normal because as we don't know him we have few subjects and few grips to share, just what is around us like the weather), being very bad to pretend, my greatest emotions occur in sharing feelings and perception, an exchange of the vision of the world; but here how it works : if there is no trust then there is no real communication, the problem is that everyone is aware that from trust born betrayal, so people are afraid, they are constantly on their guard when they speak to unknown persons. All this seems cruelly play against me and it also seems that in the current workings of things I am doomed to loneliness.