I can't reason this feeling

Do you know this emotion, after you learned the thinking of one individual, you begin to be frustrated by your daily social relations, you feel something is missing, you want more and the people in front of you don't see it, they clearly walk a different way toward a different horizon. And you think of that one person, that one whose you feel secure and you can tell everything, even your darkest wounds, the one you don't want to hide none of your supposed flaws because underlying you hope she'll accept you all, with all you are, the good, the bad, the manners, the moves, the thoughts, the conditioning, the functioning, the habits, the losses, and so on, everything, you want to be transparent because faking, hiding one's truth under the norms of this world is so much tiring and it drains you, and slowly you imagine to be able to close your eyes and letting you slip in trust, you begin to believe that this one you can trust entirely and all you have to do is being yourself, the thoughts unveilled are accepted and you see a common path to go along, a reasoning shared, then a same way to feel; So obviously if you are frustrated with people in your surroundings, your thoughts are more and more directed towards the one you feel good with and you begin to think, what is she doing, what do i miss, here i'm misunderstood but i know there is that person out there who seems to feel the way i feel; Unfortunately, for any reasons, you can't be in the vicinity of this one cherished person, so naturally you feel stuck and miss all the time, there's no other, only this one, you can't reason, you can't tell why but your body reacts and grows symptoms, like stomach ache or excessive thinking about the one, it's a complete take over, you can't withdraw, you're addicted, you want more and all around is insipid; At some moment if you're able to cross the path of such a person you feel shaky and ready to burst in tears, you only want to tell how much you love her because the moment is ephemeral and you can't think about something else; Missing is a suffering to me, i know i'm complex and my emotions are like a roller coaster, i know i can be harsh or heartless, but when you meet such a person you're convinced that your feelings are true and the purest of all mankind, and regularly i feel i'm withering just because i can't know where you are and i miss you as my ideal.