letter

"I think that what can disturb us sometimes, even when in a pleasant moment, is precisely in the past, but we have to know that real happiness is always in the present, because the past is past, (just a present moment that doesn't exist anymore), and the future isn't there yet, we can think and live again on a moment, stories, sentiments, past events of our life or events that we plan and that will be there in a while, (learn from the past to be prepare for the future, learn in the present to plan a future), but we have to remind ourselves that reality, and so life and happiness to live is necesarily in the present, it helps to detach from what was painful, if we suffered it was in the process to learn and go forward, to grow, thus we know ourselves more and more and we do less and less mistakes in our personal choices, (some things we can't live now but we will in the future when we'll be naturally ready), and at least when bad consequences happen we can manage it without dramatizing, it is how a philosophy of life and happiness grow in us.

What's intriguing is the past life that forms us, our conditioning to fit in one mold, one stereotype, i like to decypher people, know the reasons for their choices, for their taste and distaste, (everything is explicable), i like to know the functioning and a human being is a fascinating machine, be reassured no one is depersonalized in my mind, nor a test subject for analysis, but our path is made of obstacles, of passions, of fears and treasons, i'm curious because i understand melancholy and suffering brought by random events in our life, i think it's true to say that people who suffered are more enclined to awaken than others living brainlessly in comfort, they are pushed to think, they often develop a strong creative, artistic side, they make it a catharsis, an outlet, and we become musician, poet, painter or writer, and our brain endlessly search an explanation for so much grief, in that way troubled minds grow faster, because to awaken to a better life we have to decide that it's enough, enough wrong, enough fears, enough self induced suffering, and that it's time to consider living positively to be in harmony with oneself and with others, and everyone can understand when it is time to let go."