dimanche 25 décembre 2011

Hindsight from a past pain

I know now why people always seemed to fear me when i was growing up, it's because i always let them a place to be when communicating with them, i was fully present and sharing my truth, but without feeding their ego need for recognition, and attention, i was preserving my unicity, i was saying what i felt personally, intimately, in my mind the purest and most authentic way to share with someone, telling what i feel, my opinions and thoughts, and not trying to please or go in the other's direction to get something out of him, like most of people do, the ego wants something out of the other or it's not interesting and it falls into indifference, i always let people a place to be themselves around me but if they don't know who they are, then they don't know what to be, they are unconscious of their own power to be real and happy right now, and that respectful place becomes a danger for them, they fear to be nonexistent, they fear to die, at the time i was thinking, confused : "I don't understand, i want to communicate and i'm completely real but still they flee me, they are affraid of me." Now i know, i won't be hurt by those reactions, and i know my need of attention was coming from the ego, i have the power on myself now or slowly getting it.

2 commentaires:

  1. They are afraid of you, not because of who you are, but because you make them see who they are not. As you said, if they do not know who they are, they could not possibly be themselves if they are around you, because you do not give them any recognition for their pretenses.
    But enough time spent around a person like this, might spark a thought process that would go something like this:
    Who am I trying to be when I'm around this person? Why am I trying to be anything? Who am I really? Why don't I yet know who I am?

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  2. Yes, i guess around someone who is not feeding your ego it might end up in questioning about oneself and the true nature of the inner being, the one which is not influenced by the outside world and the people living around, and it's the begining to find a sincere way to be, personally i never wanted to be anything else than the real me with anyone, just living in the purity of my inner being, sharing, acting and communicating that way, if around me people can start getting conscioussness about them because seing what you are not is the beginning of the search for one true self, it's good for them, though i don't have that pretention.
    Thanks for your insight.

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