mardi 27 août 2013

The capacity of amazement

I often feel disconnected from people, like i don't vibrate on the same energy, solitude i'm used to, so i'm not here to complain about a lonely life, i think i recently defined more closely what is the state of my own energy, i always say "stupidity doesn't amuse me", but many people use it for social relations and gathering (the superficial talking and jokes, the silly films and shows), i don't know how to tell jokes, and lightness doesn't stimulate me, but i have that capacity of sharing amazement, over simple things and events, that i analyze and build up stories around, the depth in perception is my way, and i think i miss people receptive and also transmitter of that same kind of energy, positiveness and respect, people who could let themselves be around me, in their creativity and intelligence, affection and well being.

One day i brought a girl on a piece of road by night, on that short and special segment flakes of quartz were mixed with the tarmac, so that under the street lights and a clear moon it's like we're walking accross a starry sky, i was genuinely thrilled when i discovered that effect during one of my night rides, but that particular girl didn't look at the magic for long, she faced me with a faint mocking and teasing smile saying "Is that all there is here", and the worst of all is that she stayed with me for another six months afterwards.

Let your passion, your interest, your affection flowing, express who you are freely in the frame of respect, you are heard and recognized.

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  1. I think very few people have the capacity to be amazed by little things, like the shiny ground or the way trees move in the wind. I think most people think adventures involves intricate planning, going to tourist destinations and such, but that's really not necessary to enjoy a moment. I feel I have the same mentality as you described, and if you pointed out the shiny speckles on the ground I would have seen a starry sky too.

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  2. I agree many people can't grasp the little things and be amazed by it..but isn't it possible that she just wanted to be with you and do something else her mind not being able to have the same capacity to be amazed by small things shouldn't of made her staying for six months after that "the worst part" but i do have the same capacity to be amazed by small things as you.

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    1. Actually you're right, i wrote "the worst of all" because i tend to like dramatization and excess in my words (remember writers are fakers), i think she sincerely wanted to spend some time with me, even if she couldn't see the wonder i was seeing, it's a simple matter of perception and i respect in that way we are all mostly different, she was an honest and kind girl no doubt but i sure want to meet people vibrating on the same energy as me, it's just so rare.

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