Almost nobody holds on to writing
why
isn't it satisfying for people?
I think most are lazy to think
they don't have that energy
they burn the few they have elsewhere
in effortless stimulations
open the fridge, grab a piece of cake
some here say i have three lungs
maybe that goes with two brains and two hearts
who, what will be able to keep the pace
it's a lot to stimulate.
To attain satisfaction
on my own
should i .........just
................................kill
half of me.
(now everyone can giggle, fidget, and get back to a "normal" life)
if my irony could blast
It's hard to fulfill your three hearts on your own. Maybe everyone else has an extra lung too, except they suppressed it all their lives and when something provokes them they retrieve back to their one-hearted entity. Because, I think a lot of people feel they could shatter if they let themselves be tuned in to all their hearts. But you, you are an exception. You feel it all, and somehow you are not shattering...or are you? You heal yourself somehow, even all that is unfulfilled, you can stand to sense it and yet somehow continue living. I think, I used to think that you float away from yourself in your dreams but actually I see that you are grounded in yourself more than anyone I know. Your amazing imagination is what allow you to fulfill those needs, all that you struggle to satisfy on your own and whatever others fail to give.
RépondreSupprimerI like this writing, if I can call it a poem, and I see the words you are hiding.
If i had some powers, i'd like to be someone else, because i don't take any pride, nor glory, to be able to hold the deviances of the mind, no, on the contrary, it makes me feel even more alone.
RépondreSupprimerI think you're speaking of you!? about how you do!?
RépondreSupprimerYou feel the whole world suppresses you.
RépondreSupprimerI suppose I spoke of me, yeah I fulfill my needs through imagination. But I can float out of myself too, be someone else in a dream. That, I think you say you are not able to do because you're always in yourself...unlike me.
but when I float away from myself, it hurts that much more to return.
RépondreSupprimerwhy?
RépondreSupprimercan't you control it?
i don't know, how you are using that ability.
No! the world don't suppress me at all, i just feel i'm different from all the others, and the relations i have are unsatisfying, and it's not perfection i ask for, people just lack sincerity in the sharing of what they are, really, it's only that, people are fearful or they don't know themselves, so they can't give intensely, i feel satisfied when i can share all i am, (and i stay myself strong with my unicity), and that the other shares back freely what he is too, that is a free satisfying sharing for me, that's all i expect, it's simple, you learn to know the real other, you compare opinions and both feel safe to say and do whatever they really are.
RépondreSupprimerYou shared back to me with that intensity, that will to share, even if we are all always learning on ourselves, and maybe i knew myself better than you knew yourself because i lived longer but the important was the will to share real and free.
So i'm in the control of myself entirely but mainly the contact with others here aren't satisfying. I'm not sad, i stay what i am in front of others and they can't match my honesty so i can't flourish with them, though it will be so simple for them to be interesting, just by being true and share what they are freely; i guess honest people who know themselves are very rare, too bad.