I'll never be a social being, the mass has no value to me, only an individual, i need to know in a conversation that someone is totally concentrated on what i have to give, what i have to say, and reply without being parasitized by different sources of attention in the vicinity, i need to feel fully listened, i need to feel a complete sincerity emanating from the person i'm communicating, i won't raise my voice to shout louder than the other animals in the backyard, i shouldn't have to raise my voice if people truly want to know my opinions, my truth, they'll ask, so if they don't want to know no need to impose and bump elbows just to have the fake impression of existing in a group of harldy known people; Around strangers it's a fight to exist; Around friendS it's glorifying the same references, ideas and knowledge and sometimes let's agree on a fair debate to build a better view toward the truth of one subject.
I'll be null around strangers,
I'll be awkward around friends,
And i'm sure...
I'm sure,
I reach my potential with one!
It's my only way to thrive in a social situation, give my all to one; Take it or leave it!
I always thought the more people there are in a dialogue the further they stray from the truth.
RépondreSupprimerI'm also uncomfortable and frustrated in social groups that have shouting competitions. On my side of the globe (it could be only my perception) but I think people have skewed values and share too easily personal subjects and even in that they lack sincerity.
It's hard for me to trust people, so giving my all is impossible with a group...which basically means I can't trust more than one person at a time.
I think you are right, you shouldn't have to shout to be heard. You don't have to join their game of demanding attention. Those who are interested will approach you, and you should freely approach someone too if you see they can share sincerely.
I think not all conversations can be highly intellectual, but even simple moments of bliss require a sense of trust and respect to be true and memorable.
Be careful, do not hate them for having different values...you can take part in the gatherings and observe without pressurizing yourself/letting them pressurize you to join their etiquette parade!
Such a functioning closes a lot of doors, because those who judge at first sight, on appearance will never want to know me, as i look strange, cold and shaky.
RépondreSupprimerAnd the straight ones are the majority in modern countries.
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