I sincerely hope you are happy, and that you'll find what you miss, first mentally and then that you'll be able to reach and get it. It's just too bad for me i'm not a part of it, but that's how it is, i accept it, to have an interaction, a relation with someone you have to know what you want and declare it, and then respect the other's voice, need, answer, adjust both desires, and if there's no ground for compromise, construction, and evolution, then learn to let go. Sometimes the timing is wrong, sometimes the setting is wrong, with a little change of point of view, over time, a little change of context, a new relation, different and peaceful, can be born between two people that wasn't possible at one time. Stay positive!